Sunday, December 25, 2011

Days of Thanks #32

For this, my final day of gratitude during our second holiday season without our girl, I am so grateful for the precious new memories we made with our sweet Jackson this Christmas. Hudson was with us so much in spirit these past two days, and we spent some time as a family at the end of this busy day watching the slideshows of our Christmas memories with her.

But there is no doubt that the joy Jackson has brought into our lives made this day so much lighter than its predecessor last year, when I couldn’t even bear to stay at home and open gifts with Hudson’s cousins. Yesterday, Jackson opened his first presents ever with his Grandma and Grandpa at Ed’s folks’ house. And last night, he wore his sister’s “Perfect Little Present” Christmas jammies to bed (the ones she wore when she was a whole 5 months older than he is now) and then today changed into his own “My First Christmas” outfit, complete with a penguin just for him. He spent the day entertaining his cousins and aunts and uncles and playing with his new blocks and making all of us smile.

And the best present I got was watching him learn to clap his hands in delight for the first time. 

It will never be the same without Hudson, but I was so grateful to learn that this day would not forever be shrouded in darkness. I so look forward to one Christmas soon when we can share our Hudson memories with Jackson—I know he’ll love her pictures and videos as much as we do.

And finally, I want to say again (I could never say it enough) how grateful I am to all of you who continue to read here, to remember with us, and to send us so much love and support. I remain humbled and amazed by the depth of humanity that has been shown to us since we lost our girl. I hope that all of you enjoy your holiday season—thank you for embodying the very essence of the Christmas season for our family.


  1. Mandy, thanks so much for sharing your boy with us all so we too can be delighted and have our own spirits lifted. He is such a bundle of joyfulness!

    Love, Rebecca

  2. Mandy, thank you for the beautiful photos of Jackson. I am very happy for you and your family that this years Christmas is filled with new joy and hope. Looking at Jackson's little face, I am always reminded of Hudson, I will never forget her for as long as I live.

    Merry Christmas,

  3. Merry Christmas, Mandy, to you, and Ed, and Jackson, and Hudson.


  4. Mandy,
    Jackson's photos are beyond adorable, and I am so glad that you can allow the joy that resides alongside your grief to shine. I believe it is a huge part of keeping Hudson alive-to celebrate and rejoice, just as she would.

    May every day of every year bring you additional joy. You all deserve it.

  5. Jackson is so yummy! These are my favorite photos yet. His personality really shines. Just like his sister's photos, the love that you and Ed have given him is reflected in every smile and delighted look he offers the camera.

  6. He is so darn cute.. just want to pinch his cheeks.
    I am always reading and remembering Hudson with you Mandy.. I can honestly say that her story is one I will hold forever.. there is just something about your sweet daughter's memory..
    love and light..

  7. Jackson has to be one of the cutest, smiliest babies ever...just like his sister. They are both clearly surrounded by so much love.

    I think about Hudson often. Thank you for sharing her story.