Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Nothing to Report

I’m glad to report that there’s not much to report today. I had long conversations with three dear friends and put another coat of paint on the new blue bathroom. Best of all, I smiled to myself when I brought some laundry up from the basement, thinking about when Hudson used to wait for me behind the door at the top of the stairs. I’d call to her as I was climbing up and she’d bend over to peer underneath the door and then giggle (“sssstttt!”) when she saw me. I’d stick my fingers under the door and play with hers, and then open the door and swoop her up into a hug. My sweet girl. 

It was a day with only one brief teary moment, when talking with a friend at lunch. The last time I had a day like that, I felt terrible and filled with guilt, wondering what was wrong with me that I hadn’t cried harder that day. Today, I see it as a good thing, even if it ultimately proves just to be a time of rest before another round of acute grieving.

Tomorrow, I’m meeting my dad and brother at an amusement park near Richmond, where we’ll ride roller coasters all day. Is it too much to hope for three pretty decent days in a row?

12 comments:

  1. Hi Mandy, It's not too much to hope for and I hope you get it. Thinking of you and wishing that you get a full day of fun roller coasters. - Anne

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  2. Not too much to ask... here's to hoping for three (or four or five...)

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  3. No one could deserve a good time more than you. Have fun in Richmond!

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  4. patrickandashley.blogspot.com
    this family just lost their little girl last month. it is very inspiring story, they have such a beautiful outlook on life. hoping maybe their story can bring you some comfort. you are in my prayers.

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  5. Doubtless, there will be more very hard days, but to put three better ones together would be blessed relief. From your mouth to gods ears, I say.
    Claire

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  6. You go and have a fantastic day with your Dad and brother. You deserve it! You so deserve it!

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  7. Mandy, I am so, so glad that you are having a respite of sorts...I to have managed to string together a few "better" days (recognizing that all things are relative). Hudson is surely smiling on you...and is right there for you in all those sweet memories....

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  8. I love that you love roller coasters.
    Hoping for good days-

    Love
    Kelley Barnhardt

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  9. Have a ball at the park! SO happy to hear you are getting, at the very least, a momentary reprieve.

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  10. Nope...they will keep on coming. :-) There's reason to be hopeful.
    Olivia

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  11. It is SO not too much to ask for! I hope you have a great time today! xoxo Keely

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