Not much. This week has been a struggle. The emptiness is pervasive, the ache so terrible. I could have guessed it was coming after this weekend. I could have guessed it was coming with the snow. But I couldn’t stop it from coming, any more than I can bring Hudson back. My dearest Ed is always so kind, always asking what he can do, even though he knows and I know that he can’t do anything. I just have to keep living through it, even through the fleeting (and thankfully, very rare) moments when I’m not sure if I even want to.
I just have to keep living through it.