I wish that you could and I hate all that you are going through. Keep all the good thoughts about your baby boy and let him help you heal. It will never be a replacement but there is healing powers that come with new life. And when that falters, there is complete (but special in its own right) exhaustion that comes with having a newborn. Make sure to take care of you.
Feeling your pain and shedding some tears on this rainy day... also sending love and support your way and wishing I could relieve just a sliver of your grief, Mandy.
I know you just want her back. You just want her in her arms, in the yard, in the car where she should be. There's nothing any of us can say to make that Hudson-shaped hole close up, and there never will be. I wish it weren't so. But Jackson is on his way to meet you, and although he will never fill her unique shoes - nor would you ask him - I pray that his presence, physically and emotionally, swells your heart in ways that allow you to revel in the joy of what is, instead of remaining in a place of what was or should be. So much love to you.
I was at a birthday party yesterday, and they were blowing bubbles. Every time I see bubbles, I think of sweet Hudson. Though she is not here, she is here. Hugs to you all <3
If we could give her to you we would. All we can do is hold you and Ed and Jackson close to us both literally and figuratively. No one could have loved her better, and no one deserved her love more.
I wish, for you and for all of us with holes in our hearts...but I also wish for us all the joy of a new morning, of a new life, of love and laughter. Jackson's arrival will bring put a layer of joy over the sadness of this anniversary month...and that is One Good Thing.
Sending so much love my friend. Last night I dreamed of her.. it was so strange as I still have not dreamed of Cullen. It was something lingering form the pictures you have posted.. I cannot remember much but I can tell you that in my dream she was happy, beautiful, and smiling. I wish it were not a dream my friend.. my heart aches for you.
I wish that you could and I hate all that you are going through. Keep all the good thoughts about your baby boy and let him help you heal. It will never be a replacement but there is healing powers that come with new life. And when that falters, there is complete (but special in its own right) exhaustion that comes with having a newborn. Make sure to take care of you.
ReplyDeleteFeeling your pain and shedding some tears on this rainy day... also sending love and support your way and wishing I could relieve just a sliver of your grief, Mandy.
ReplyDeleteOh, Mandy. I wish, wish, wish . I am so sorry.
ReplyDeleteThinking of Hudson when pulling dandelions in the yard recently. Wishing it wasn't for the reasons it was.
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ReplyDeleteI wish we cold all wish with you until she was just back with you.
ReplyDeleteI know you just want her back. You just want her in her arms, in the yard, in the car where she should be. There's nothing any of us can say to make that Hudson-shaped hole close up, and there never will be. I wish it weren't so. But Jackson is on his way to meet you, and although he will never fill her unique shoes - nor would you ask him - I pray that his presence, physically and emotionally, swells your heart in ways that allow you to revel in the joy of what is, instead of remaining in a place of what was or should be. So much love to you.
ReplyDeleteI wish, Mandy, so much, every day. I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteClaire
I wish you could, Mandy- for your sake and for hers. The harsh reality is still very hard to believe most days. I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteI was at a birthday party yesterday, and they were blowing bubbles. Every time I see bubbles, I think of sweet Hudson. Though she is not here, she is here. Hugs to you all <3
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If we could give her to you we would. All we can do is hold you and Ed and Jackson close to us both literally and figuratively. No one could have loved her better, and no one deserved her love more.
ReplyDeleteI wish, for you and for all of us with holes in our hearts...but I also wish for us all the joy of a new morning, of a new life, of love and laughter. Jackson's arrival will bring put a layer of joy over the sadness of this anniversary month...and that is One Good Thing.
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Judy
Sending so much love my friend. Last night I dreamed of her.. it was so strange as I still have not dreamed of Cullen. It was something lingering form the pictures you have posted.. I cannot remember much but I can tell you that in my dream she was happy, beautiful, and smiling.
ReplyDeleteI wish it were not a dream my friend.. my heart aches for you.
Been thinking about you guys so much lately. Sending love...
ReplyDeleteTracy
Oh, Mandy -- Thoughts, prayers and (((hugs))). I ache for you, my dear. Mariann
ReplyDeleteI deeply, deeply wish that you could have your dear little daughter back. And that she could have you back too. xo
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